Interesting that I find myself within a more feminine offering to explore and heal all of these wounds and beliefs that I have had around the Feminine itself and women in general. This has played out in multiple Metasoul timelines as well in regards to feelings of guilt and shame over how I had participated in the suppression and persecution of the women. I had given all I could until it was clear I had to cut the cord of this dynamic. This ended up transmuting into recycled alcoholism and I eventually had to say no more. Well, through much of my healing and experience with other powerful women, I recognized that this was a part of her wounded inner child tugging on my inner child. This set up an unhealthy dynamic between her and my inner child that he had to make sure not to ‘hurt mom or else who knows what would happen to her’. This was deeply ingrained in me from early on in my life as my mother was a very sensitive and emotional woman in the despair direction. It also mirrors a long-standing notion that the feminine is fragile. The first thing that was brought to him is that just this very question alone suggests his reverence for the feminine and the holding of the sacred space. There is this fine line of wanting to be in balance and honor with the feminine, express and claim his power and intuitions while avoiding this ‘toxic’ distinction. That was a portal question to what feels like a grappling of the wounded masculine’s relationship to the feminine, as well as a reaction to what is referred to as ‘toxic masculinity’. He began to wonder, “What then is appropriate masculinity?”. My feminine is quite capable of holding that space, but Marcus, when he is ‘up’, can be a little more mental in those moments without letting the feeling just do the ‘talking’.
#Ascension soulstice rising how to#
Like he is not sure how to be in a space when things get tender. What came up for him was an image of a bull in a china shop. This brought up some prior frequencies within my masculine to show up with some compensatory energy, meaning a little more energized and outbound due to some underlying feeling of inadequacies within him to be a leading edge part of this group.
#Ascension soulstice rising series#
(For more info on the upcoming series go to /freetobe2) Recently, I have been invited to partake more and more into reintegrating back into service by co-leading with Kalayna Solais a Saturday follow-up discussion group with those that attend the Wednesday Free-To-Be group calls. The first half was a revisiting of my inner masculine part named Marcus. So much so, I will need to write this up in two parts.
An epic SoulFullHeart session with Raphael Awen this weekend.
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